My Stupid Mouth..............

Even I am entitled to moments of weakness. Ideas sound so good at the time but hindsight always tells me i'm an idiot. sorry for that. bad idea. should have never brought it up or suggested it. not now. no way i could handle it. bad, bad idea. Sometimes i just shouldn't open my mouth or dial my fucking phone. 9 hours a day at work and all through the night is too much time for my head to be left to its own devices. Sorry I can't be a stronger person. what was I thinking. I guess i just wasn't. I guess i thought i needed some closure, something to make it easier. Its either i hurt now or hurt later. I think I'll choose now. fuck it, i got to fucking work in 45 fucking minutes. This sucks.......